Monday, March 19, 2007 . 3:39 PM
the thing about being mad with the one you care most about is that at the end of everything you forget what the whole arguement is about in the first place. i want to propose a question to everyone: do you forget cause you want to put it behind you or cause you just have to forget or it will result in you screaming thousands of vulgarities and a horridly tempting feeling of murdering the person.i think:
sometimes.. we all do the stupidest things for love
even if it means biting our tongue when we have so much to say. the pathetic attempts to try and BE THERE for someone to show you care. when you want to cry, you look away, turning back only to smile. looking as if NOTHING IS WRONG at all.
for me i think tend to freak out. i need anger management... i bite my tongue so i won't say the mean things, and in doing so i feel more depressed and sink back into myself. then i don't talk. i hide.building my own hell hole. my own grave
be it same sex or the opposite, when you love-hate someone it can be tough
im sure everyone gets it.it could be your best gal-pal, you buddy at work, some chum at the bar.. that there will be someone out there in your life that you like/love their company, yet hate them so bitterly but YET you can't live your life without them. these morons make and break your day. and you can't do anything about it.
isn't it ironic
how frustrating is that. the one you hold, the one who's hand you take, the one you have lunch with, talk to late at night, the one that makes you have the inspiration to bother and care, drives you the most mad.
sadly,
i for one am not much for caring. like thats news to people. everyone i know has given the verdict that i am stoned, emo-less and basically cold. emo-less is the hottest descriptive word used. makes me wonder does it mean when i do finally care about someone its nothing short of a mini miracle?
according to my friends: IT IS.
[HEADMUSIC]: buddha bar
food for thought
::the thing that makes me mad
is the one thing that i had
i knew
i knew
i'd lose you::
Labels: THE THING THAT MAKES ME MAD
Saturday, March 17, 2007 . 11:31 AM
recieved email from my sis telling me that my ma was also contemplating staying on in the UK too! im glad. i hope she does confirm this. im not really into tours, like to roam the city streets myself and figure my way around. think it would be cool.we met up for tribal council yesterday at NO5 and
the gang has spoken.
this coming wednesday we shall finally party.
drinking session will start from 8pm onwards. can't imagine how on earth will we all survive.its like a ritual everytime i leave we will drink. sometimes, we just need a reason. i guess ANY reason is good enough. even me heading off. but im glad. nice to have a bonding session and going crazy over our favourite drinks. i have even roped in a new drinking kaki: M.A.R.I.E
as mentioned she is me very cool collegue at jgc
thank god for her or i would have die long ago in that place. so now we are drinking kakis too! she gave me something today. told me if i didnt see her on monday at least she gave me something. it was an ehor pen holder with a note attached. how sweet. its a nice warm feeling knowing your gonna be missed when your gone ..
well , im happy if i stay on in the uk .. maybe for another month ? i wish. would you ?
[THOUGHTS}]: i really am horrible... and its my fault. sorry
Labels: anarchy in the uk
Friday, March 16, 2007 . 5:48 PM
heading to the UK very soonrealise im starting to panic like i always do . i feel that im dying cause im have to go UK, resign, go NIE . where is my life going to? hell i tell you
i email my sis hoping i could stay on while my mum heads back sg
i realise too how i seriously CANNOT LIVE in sg anymore... i need to get out to live
i see my path in life as out of the country. how ironic keeping in mind im about to sign my life over to gov service as a civil servant soon. i KNOW how weird i must sound.
keeping this in mind i actually made a desperate attempt to stay in UK longer like a month? but i think its not worth it cause of the last minute cancellation of stuff. hmm... so i've decided to trudge my butt back to sg on the date sitpulated then fly AGIAN. where to ? ha i can only imagine. not sg. thats it.
i called up some tour agencies.
i felt old doing that. vaguely firmilar.
but i feel completely different cause now i have a NEW REASON. and i think i should be glad.
[HEADMUSIC]:misery by the moffats heading to the UK very soon
realise im starting to panic like i always do . i feel that im dying cause im have to go UK, resign, go NIE . where is my life going to? hell i tell you
i email my sis hoping i could stay on while my mum heads back sg
i realise too how i seriously CANNOT LIVE in sg anymore... i need to get out to live
i see my path in life as out of the country. how ironic keeping in mind im about to sign my life over to gov service as a civil servant soon. i KNOW how weird i must sound.
keeping this in mind i actually made a desperate attempt to stay in UK longer like a month? but i think its not worth it cause of the last minute cancellation of stuff. hmm... so i've decided to trudge my butt back to sg on the date sitpulated then fly AGIAN. where to ? ha i can only imagine. not sg. thats it.
i called up some tour agencies.
i felt old doing that. vaguely firmilar.
but i feel completely different cause now i have a NEW REASON. and i think i should be glad.
[HEADMUSIC]:misery by the moffats
Wednesday, March 14, 2007 . 8:29 PM
take a listen.damn funny
this is not the last 3 lines of my blog post.
its the only 3 in the ENTIRE post
wanted to say that i am sorry
Monday, March 12, 2007 . 5:13 PM
CNY :gathering at my housei FINALLY got my hands on some of the pics taken that day=)
me and the girls taking a cheenafied shot over at the rose wood funiture.
haa.. me looking very gross while the girls are striking a sexy pose
me, alicia and leo doing the crystal-wannabe pose
Labels: CNY gathering at da house
Sunday, March 11, 2007 . 3:35 PM
[BLIND]I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain
I have to carry a past so deep
that even you could not bury if you tried after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep only in hopes
of dreaming that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
after all this time I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go
check out the link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2IhiDr6e-_8
[HEADMUSIC]: JGC kids screaming and going crazy on party week
Friday, March 09, 2007 . 3:39 PM
went to the IT fair at suntec with mr tim khoodespite it being a weekday it was packed and everyone was squashed like sardines. laptops ranging from a low of $1299 for a simply ACER to 3600+ for a MAC.cameras going for as low as $399 a bundle includes a 7.0 Megapix cam, tripods, SD cards,casing etc. just a little cheaper compared to the normal market rates. wishing all people heading out to the IT fair all the best. bring loads of water and gear your patience ready to slowly pace around the showrooms.
gave me a semi headache and i was glad to finally breathe the outside air.
tim took me to buy ciggs
we drove to geylang and i was like "huh? aren't we going to a 7-11?" then he started explain how all the banglas there walk around the streets selling contraband ciggs. this is did not know. i feel enlighted
the illegal process:
~first you circle around geylang
~then you head to some ulu street where you notice alot of men in black carrying large plastic bags simply bumming around looking as if waiting for something to happen
~pull up your car and wind down your window
~immediately someone will walk up to you and ask what you want to buy
~they literally throw the ciggs into the car and you pass them the cash. $5 per pack
~ and you're DONE !
[HEADMUSIC]: cannonball by damien rice
Wednesday, March 07, 2007 . 12:47 PM
FINALLY after 100000000000 years i went to check my porn mailfound a cute mail sent by miss sexy thought i'll share it with everyone out there:
Once you have opened this email, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictionist. Read your sign, then forward this in a new bulletin with your zodiac sign and label, or you'll get bad luck for the number of years stated in your sign description. This is real shit, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning and it only gets worse from there. Stay sexy. :-)
.:SCORPIO:. THE SEX ADDICT
Can be mean. Extremely sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. Freak in bed. Great kisser. Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going.Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever. Romantic.Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:LIBRA:. THE LAME LOVER
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet. Amazing in bed. Did I say amazing in bed? Not exactly the kind of person you wanna #### with. You might end up crying. The most irresistible. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:ARIES:. THE LIAR
Outgoing. Lovable.Spontanious. Not one to #### with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser. Extremely sexy. Loves being in long relationships. Addictive. Loud. best in bed. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:AQUARIUS:. DOES IT IN THE WATER
Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. Amazing in bed. The best lovers. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:GEMINI:. DOES TWOSOMES
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very good in bed. Lover but not a fighter but will still knock the #### out of you. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. Very forgiving. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. Ultra sexy. The most irrestistable. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:LEO:. THE LION IN BED
Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive.Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:CANCER:. THE CUTIE
Most amazing kisser. Very high sex appeal. Great in bed. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet. Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great in telling stories. Not a fighter but will knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:PISCES:. THE PIECE OF ASS
Caring and kind. Smart.Center of attention. Too sexy, damn it. Very high sex appeal. Has the last word. The best to find and hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good sense of humor. Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:CAPRICORN:. THE PASSIONATE LOVER
Loves to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predicts the future. Irrestible, awesome kisser.Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR THE BEST IN BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first so you will never forget. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:TAURUS:. THE TRAMP
Aggressive. Freak in bed.Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as... . Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as... . Most caring person you will ever meet. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. The most sexiest people on earth. 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:SAGITTARIUS:. THE SEXY ONE
Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet. Amazing in Bed. Did I say amazing in bed? Not the kind of person you wanna mess with. You might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
.:VIRGO:. THE VIRGIN
Dominant in relationships.Sexy. Someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward
i realise that as long a you have a zodiac sign means you are a "freak in bed"
**super singlish slag ** WHY AH ? WHY LIDDAT ONE?
nice to know the world is a such a happening place
a horny one too
Saturday, March 03, 2007 . 10:49 AM
A(is currently attached to X but slept with B)B(is attached to Y),C(likes D but is currently attached to Z)D(still holds a thing for C),
E and F are currently attached(don't ask me who they slept with. how the hell should i know)
A,B,C,D,E,F,X,Y,Z
all know each other and meet up occassionally
smile , shake hands , go home
behold: the POWER OF FRIENDSHIP
i am sure many people out there has this somehow been entangled in this problem. even if it is due to a friend of a friend of a friend situation. be it maybe even via 6 degree friendships away or even being the culprit and doing the dirty deed of simply: sleeping among friends.
i always wondered about this topic
reflected quite long. well, erm as long as i bothered to think about any topic in the first place, about WHY do people do that? why do people ...how shall i put this lightly.. "FUCK AMONG FRIENDS?" everyone knows thats bad policy. in such bad taste.
it kinda screws up group dynamics and makes everyone and everything so uncomfortable when everything starts going sour.how awkward.and everyone else knows who you are sleeping with and who is doing who and then all have tea together.
all this totally throws me
but ,
i think the greatest mind blowing bit about it all is : how do you have all your exs in a table , hold on to your current shag and face all your friends and live to tell about it.i think that is so not it. or am i suppose to act like paris hilton and give the "THAT'S HOT" reaction.ermm...hmmm..
it gives a new ring to the saying " that's what friends are for".
on my side i would like to rebutt the age old taboo with my own question:
isn't it comforting knowing that the person who understands you most is your good buddy and sex partner? isn't that the best combo?
and some day 10 years down this road to hell
you'll wake up to realise your sleeping next to your childhood best friend.
suprise surrr-prrissseee.
shock shock horror horror
[HEADMUSIC]:sex and candy by macy playground
Labels: MASS ORGIES: the thing about sleeping with your friends
Thursday, March 01, 2007 . 5:31 PM
lame lame lame ...
by either way
to the dungeon boys: haaa.. although lame. you guys rock. -_<"
