swapped work days with marie so i can get my sunday off. thank god or i think i'll simply be hanged by the gang. its bad enough i was sick and couldn't be there for many events.i feel so out of touch with the rest of the world.

im still down and still have not recieved any letter from NIE yet. a slow panic is building but im remaining cool calm collected which is so not true.i hope it comes soon.

today i was late agian for work. was late by 30mins and obviously tis does not reflect well on me. met miss ang yester and she chidded me for being so spiteful to my supers.she thinks that i was doing my usual routine of telling them about my other chances with NIE since my probation was extended. hmmmm... i don't think i intended to threaten them with anything. just thought i'd be upfront about my thoughts about teaching and that i may leave the centre anyhow. so the big question now is : is being too honest wrong to when you are surrounded by people paid to ACT and put on masks. how strange that i wind up being in a place where truth holds not much weight in water. it is weighed in my blood.

and you left with the friday gang and now i am so envious, so dying to get away from sg i want to run to where you are. and why not ? i want to hoilday too! well i think hoilday is not the word. i want to migrate and have nice car, small garden which i can grow weed in, a ferret to play with crystal, a life to call mine. how's that for a change?

i feel so chained down. its like i've sold my soul to the devil. well. almost.

[HEADMUSIC]: thank you for loving me by bonjovi

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 . 1:31 PM

they say its a bad year for the Pig ironically in the year of the pig
SIGHS so as usual i kanna quite a few scraps myself
its the first day back at work
and already i have had some bad news:
i am claimed to be too bz with my msn,not very the punctual and not hypocritical enough to smile like a nut and be a good door bitch and greet everyone that walks by. hmmmmmmmmmm... how did i fail in all those i wonder wonder wonder!

so now my probation is extended.
-__-" i am THAT lousy. how depressing
thank god again im leaving sg
oh this is a little extract for all you ching-chongfied people out there.enjoy:

2007, the Year of the Pig is with it's Fire Element and representative colour red. Thus it is the 'Ding Hai' Year : the Year of the Red Fire Pig or Boar. 2007 is also the 4th year in the new Feng Shui Land Luck Cyclic Period 8. The year symbolises the element Fire sitting over Water. Both these elements are direct opposites and with their clashing relationship, cannot co-exist. This clash of elements will mean frequent international conflicts and serious internal struggles. Civil unrest will lead to uprisings and civil war will break out in several countries, leading to overthrowing of governments. The Female Fire will be quite devastating. Many states will be preoccupied with border disputes, provincial clashes, cross country terrorism and disintegration of existing territories.

The year 2007 is an year of countless gossips and endless arguments. From the general public to the topmost leaders, there will be disputes everywhere, at all levels. People will have verbal duels and fights and the nature will have it's own conflicts. Rumours will haunt the governments leading to major differences within. Political parties will be greatly polarised. There will be conflicts within the doors also, meaning disruption in family harmony and marital relationships. Unlike last year, this year will see many separations, even though this is also a good year for marriage and child bearing. There will be many cases of young men marrying older women. People will have their privacy intruded, confidential information stolen, sold and exposed to the public glare. If you have anything to hide, the chances are that it will be found out, this year. Their self-confidence shaken, many will entertain suicidal thoughts. On the positive side, shady characters, sinners and wanted terrorists will be caught red handed. Family disputes and juvenile delinquency would be severe. Crimes committed by children especially are not to be overlooked. New comers and females would put on impressive performances this year. In fact, 2007 favours women, especially middle aged women. Large public rallies, countless agitations, raised tempers, high tensions and traffic congestions will mark this year ugly. The year has the potential for situations to gather great speed or burn out of control.

The Pig Year also brings about many changes : changes at all levels. Changes in profession, career changes, moving out of homes and offices, shifting to new school/college, sudden change in governments, etc. Inter-country immigrations will rise drastically. The year also indicates heavy travelling : personally and in profession too. Thus tourism, travels and transportation sectors will flourish in a big way. At the same time, all types of transports will be more accident prone : road transports, trains, shipping and airplanes. Avoid travelling to the North West of your place directly, as the Annual TaiSui is situated there and it is not advised to confront this war-like energy formation. Accidents are also likely to occur to objects or structures situated in great heights like satellites, bridges, high-rise buildings, mountains, giant wheels, etc.

There will be many disasters pertaining to fire and water : fire disasters, volcanic eruptions, wild forest fires, fire arm explosions, bomb attacks, even possible nuclear threats; earthquakes, avalanches, heavy rains, torrential floods, unceasing sea winds, reflux of sea water, defeating atmospheric frosts and meloncholic dampness.

The world population is more susceptible to microbic and viral infections, especially those that affect abdomen and intestines. There will be many problems related to digestive disorders, food poisoning, blood circulation, heart, nerves, eyes and hypertension. The popularity of yoga, tai-chi and qi-gong will increase. The practicality of meditation will be more understood. There will be strange troubles arising out of burials and burial grounds. Religious tensions, racist riots and cult conflicts will be on the rise and in some cases they will trigger small scale wars or group suicides. Superstitions and manipulations will rule. Drug trafficking will grow by leaps and bounds. Wildlife slaughter and bird hunting will increase. The struggle against pollution will intensify.

This year Electrical, Chemistry, Petroleum and Computer Businesses would have the best performance. All areas related to Information, Banking, Finance, Windmills, Insurance, House Renovations and Building Materials, Food Businesses, Hotels, Beauty Clinics, Health Spas, Lottery, Law, Medical Tools and Medicines, Advertising, Lighting, Gifts, Furniture, Fengshui and Vaastu will prosper. Computer Media and Mobile Phones will do well in spite of stiff competition. Businesses related to Stock Markets, Real Estates, Construction, Automobiles, Fashion Garments, Printing & Publishing, Religions, Astrology, Antiques and Consultations will do average. Industries and Professions pertaining to Shipping, Fishing, Mining, Hardware, Entertainment, Textiles, Animal Husbandry, Marine Products and Agriculture will be unfavoured.

Professionals and the self-employed will do better this year. There will be several mergers of industrial groups and hostile take-overs too will be plenty. Small business enterprises will form unofficial groups and prosper. This is a year that favours team work. Money will come in more easily and unexpectedly, but will ooze out porously. The general living standards of the people will improve greatly. The material lives will improve significantly with the help of technology gadgets and the ever expanding communications network and easily accessible and economical internet. In that way, an year to savour!

i think all this is bull.

im feeling blue
not to mention this morning i accidentally jabbed myself with biscuit's needle after giving her her daily shots. how stupid of me. oh a little update. i have two cats now.well housing them. one is a russian blue called biscuit who is also the world's oldest cat. 16 years and counting needing 2 insulin shots a day and on diabete food. the other is called blackie which is a norwegian forest cat who is a little anti.

looking forward to the weekend.

[THOUGHT]:you had better be good or u die

Friday, February 16, 2007 . 12:04 PM

petsitting has taken off!
the new year bring loads of new things,new clothes, new dvd player, new pets. erm.. well sort of

i have: crystal, snuffy, JJ in house
tonight i have tiny little yatsu coming. yatsu is a snoop doggy dog, dog. she is a 4 month old beagle pup.how sweet.the house is a zoo, but miss crystal is super duper happy. she is overjoyed to the max cause she has new friends to play with. she has a twin whose name is snuffy. snuffy is golden too but a labrador. the cobo of crystal and snuff is POWER the two are like monsters drooling and going mad when i head home. dogs really are very cute. but they can be a hand full -_-"

so much for dogs, now about the cny
tomorrow there is the usual gathering of the aunts and the uncles at bedok area. my aunty fanny is hosting and so the immediate family on the lokes side are all attending. glad to be there to eat the food, not so glad cause my sis is not around. starting to feel bits of lonliness trickling in. strange how people exprience love-hate relationships with their siblings. you can live with or without them.

at night rocky and leo have set plans to party
im still not sure if i can make it.may still be at the house. check back then. to all the chinese people out there reading: HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR in advance.

[THOUGHTS]: the truth about cats and dogs

Tuesday, February 13, 2007 . 10:20 AM

was offered one of those mini packets of bak kua by marie
yeah , you know, those small packets of pre-packed bak kua which taste like anything else other then what it really is suppose to be-meat. wonder what kinda of faux meat is this anyway.WHO BUYS THIS STUFF ANYHOW?

kays,
i never was one who actually remember which date chinese new year actually falls on. never was one to take note of much, only when all the bak kua appears and the town is splashed with obiang red deco then im like "oh. new year." think cause of this thing with the chinese calendar thats why cny falls on which ever day it is suppose to fall on. im too potato to know till i ask someone more chenafied then me. of course by then, EVERYONE already knows

red is IN
so i decide to be fashionably OUT
im wearing this dress its aqua marine and brown. and super weird combo which i happen not to approve of but looks not too bad on me. strange. i think i look best when im at my most off. hmmmmm... what does that say about me i wonder.ponder ponder

and besides the up and coming new year there is another of those red letter day around the corner.

well its TOMORROW actually
worse still.
and yeap i am talking about valentine's day. ever wonder why a big stubby kid holding wepons of massive destruction on his hands became the epitomy of love? (and if you are on the s.l.o.w side. yes i am talking about Cupid) i don't know about you guys out there, but for me i like my day to be simple. need not be romantic. last year i was doing radio pulze opening and man handling all the crazy logistics for the day. this year, i have work to keep me tied down. so i'll be stuck at work till evening come night. actually i think a GREAT v-day would be where i have no work and get to watch all the dvds in the world and relax. that is what i call a great day.

everyone i know has been getting all psyched up
and the BIG QUESTION on everyone's lips is "so what are you doing tomorrow?"

it's crazy.
women are especially crazy.they are the creators of expectations. and the men, well men are MEN. i bet all around the globe men are like rolling their eyes doing the bo pian thing and buying something to be lomantic sitting in cold sweat hoping it works and trying hard not to incur the wrath of whoever they are dating.

viscious viscious cycle.

[HEADMUSIC]:everything by lifehouse

Saturday, February 10, 2007 . 10:21 AM

Flixster - Share Movies

another long boring saturday,

in JGC all the nursery 1s are piling into the centre. tomorrow will be flooded with the bilingual playclub children. sigh what a week.

later im heading NUS its been awhile. last time i was rushing there to get my stupid transcript.hmmm.. suppose to be some big gathering like a 100 odd people shall attempt to be good and sociable and mingle. chances are i will be sitting in one corner stoning. cant imagine how all will fit into the studio. i'll just try not to breathe and act slim. i just hope the food is good >_-"

Trailer: Norbit

Flixster - Share Movies

i was thinking of catching norbit when it is out. so funny. i feel so happy that i managed to find the trailer. thank you flixter! but the show i am so dying to watch is 300! anyone who knows when it is out pls msg me. thanks in advance.

now i would like to bring up the topic of friendster

just realised yesterday how i was mysteriously removed from certain people's friendster and just as mysteriously added by even stranger people. i mean who on earth are these people man? WHERE DO U PEOPLE COME FROM? tsktsk. anyway im not like miss vicki who is a cyberstalker. im more like a cyberbummer. stoning online all day checking mail and listening to mtvs on utube and flixster. boring me.

o yeah while browsing friendster i found a pic. i thought to me myself: " ah FINALLY ... one for the girls who do bother reading this miserable blog of mine. too many pics of girls.. ha so sorry .well this one is for you girls out there"

and yeah if anyone is wondering why in hell im such a tiko
no i am not. im not so bo liao

this peeps is my darling
cousin.

[HEADMUSIC]: jaded by aerosmith

Friday, February 09, 2007 . 11:53 AM

been sick
think the word "sick" is is highly under-rated and simply doesn't cut it for the way i've been feeling but ... but okie. so i am not well.

its been years. think the last time i had a sinus full-on attack was when i was in JC1. feel kinda miserable now. i comfort myself at least its not as bad as before. asthma did not set in. if not i think i'll just die and not go work forever. now i simply have 24/7 headaches/flu/fever/cough/sore throat. thought i was getting better but yesterday i threw up three times ! that was like a pile of food around midnight. stomach very quezy now. i don't know what's wrong with me. been to the docs twice and im so tired already and im refusing to go anymore. i don't see why i should spend good money on bad doctors that cure nothing and make me sleepy and sick all day.

i want to apologies to everyone for MIA-ing,
i've been sick for 2 weeks plus and counting. im not getting better but i hope soon. days that i AM AWAKE is rare. im either at work feeling sick or dead on medication at home. i hate this feeling too. i want to complain about doctors suppling this crazily small yellow pill. and there is another pink mini pill which is so powerful it can knock out an elephant. i don't know who made those two pills but i bet although i can't cure my sinus for nuts, it definately is an A* solution for the insomniacs. TRUST ME on that

now i am sitting at work feeling sick. stomach aint feeling good
mum's been feeding me weird pills lately and along with the doctor's medication i've lost my appetite. havent been eating alot lately too. i hope this doesn't last. nothing worse then feeling shitty all day and stuck with work

a highlight of the week was THE INTERVIEW!
i lost my voice completely and some very very gross but POWERFUL medicine (esp the weird chinese medicine)i managed to find some voice to squeeze out for the interview.3 women i was scared shitless. nevertheless i tried.

first question:"have you always wanted to teach?"
answer:" actually, to tell you the truth..ermm..NO. i thought it was one of the worst occupations one could take on..but along the way many things changed my mind.. blah blah blah"

they actually laughed and agreed.
i wonder is that a good sign.hmmm.. well it'll take 15 working days peeps before i actually know the outcome wherthe i actually screwup or got it. im silently freaking out but as usual maintain my super cool exterior. i CAN handle it.

ok *big sigh
back to staring at the computer and doing more work. i still feel sicky in the pits of my stomach. suppose to meet the gang but i hope the boys forgive me for cancelling. really really REALLY not feeling too good. niam me when im better ok?

::Everything::
Find me here, and speak to me
I want to feel You, I need to hear You
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms and You give me rest
You hold me in Your hands
You won't let me fall
You still my heart and You take my breath away

Would You take me in, take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this ?

ps: thanks for the card. i think its sweet. what a way to bribe me to forgive you. how kelong

Friday, February 02, 2007 . 12:28 PM

many things happened this week.
i started up a pet sitting thing. a Pet sitting stint. Of course its home based and I THINK I have my first customer! Just got an sms from the owner with regards to his doggy. Kinda happy=) I did have a few replies to my ads on various pet websites, questioning me about price, availability, boarding etc. nice to know also that people do love their pets! I think crystal maybe happy to get to know new friends as well.

Sis left for the UK so I am all alone. Poor me. And now I am down with the flu=( sorry for MIA-ing peeps my sinus is acting up again. Don’t worry girl I am still alive. Will meet up very soon kays.

Next and life changing: I got a letter from NIE!!Omg yes yes yes I did! Yesterday I received a dubious looking letter and I was wondering what was that. It was a letter saying that I have been shortlisted for an interview for secondary education for lit and geog!i am still so amazed by their efficency how on earth they manage to get all my info down and do a placing in their school systems. So yeaps I am pretty happy .was jumping up and down yesterday like some nut at home nearly crack my floor la

[HEADMUSIC]: tea and sympathy by jars of clay
[THOUGHTS]:teeth falling out a bad sign?