USUAL SUSPECTS: PART 2

DEARLY BELOVED:

we are gathered here on this website to witness the 2 manually constructed graves i made. if ya a lousy fake and can't pretend to pity and sob for the dead , you might as well APPLAUDE ME for my beautiful art work! only righteous that you do.

PS: and when i say they requested for it, plz don't be a smart arse and think they spooked me in my dreams- try via the mobile phone.

[headmusic]: far away by nickleback

[quote]: it takes you a while to finally see the art in me

welcome to day 5

Monday, May 15, 2006 . 12:40 AM

THE USUAL SUSPECTS:
(MR. LIM , no i am not infriging on copyrights. bleahs)

APPLE: aka woman.and yess.. she has been the hot topic for you guys lately. now check out her pic. (sorry woman i don't have a clearer pic. don't kill me for the uncomplimentary pose k.) my former junior, pals since sec sch.and she has offically gave me the "best-shoulder-to-cry-on" award. thankx. and she's currently in SIM and works for MOS VIP.always dresses better then me and put me to shame.*sigh.check her out.
current status: single



VEE: this girl is darn cute. occasionaly party goer with SEXY to rouge , and works at Dan Ryan's too. always smiling and laughing,still remember she was amazed how fast my hair grows but now hers is like all the way to her waist! omg! very cool. very spunky.
current status: attached

KEANE: aka alki-lim-poh!missing in action ever since she got attached. former party animal, constant massive drinker(only k.o twice in her life ..erm i think) and super smoker. former partying groupee and drinking kaki. super workaholic at pontini.
current status: very very attached



CLANE (left): ocassional meet up with clane. this girl ahh .. seriously a mega guy magnet! i wanna die whenever we are in phuture, esp when she's gone. i'll never forget. urgh! .
current status:dating someone. so hands off guys

LEOANA(right): leo on the otherhand is super fun to hang with, my kaki for shopping, bitching, coffeeeeeeeeee and crazy partying. loves to hangout at ROCKY'S sub-branch (rocky masters), also my lounging parnter at acid, zouk, phuture, rouge and everywhere else. she likes duckies, and cute stuff, jap fashion and has killer dress sense! she is always onz with all my crazy stunts and even when we dress up to party. haaa.. this girlll rockz
current status: single




MARIAH: aka sexylady (in short: sexy) she is my sexy mama, she loves r&b and one of the rare few who enjoys MOS's pure music (thank god). works at Dan Ryan's and is constantly busy busy busyyyyy !so hard to date her out man. but she's great to party with and a great friend to have around. lounges at acid,phuture and zouk occasionally. mainly houses at rouge.
current status: sexyy single













EDMUND: major zoukette and former zouk bouncer. currently sports the "shaggy" look, very groovy and dances like a madman. typically found at zouk on the main podium with his girl nadia who is just as funky and crazy drinker/dancer, also spotted at phuture ranting and raving.both mega party animals . darn cute lah if you see them
current status: crazily attached.



ROCKY: aka Mr. "On The Spot" (no. do NOT ask me why..shhhhh! i won't tell as i don't wanna die early). currently working as a lifeguard and is one of the bouncers you see at zouk. loves mambo music and has the tendency to sleep like a mermaid! loves soup and mochi and likes to over suntan. kaki for steamboats, soup drinking, and cookouts and occasional acid days.
current status: erm...questionable


AMIN: aka "min" or "a-min"(pronounced "a minute" minus the "ute") he is my boy toy and i am his bitch in school. bitch as in bitching gal pal. friends since cjc , going thru the turmult and chao of cjc-ian life and managing to survive it. class of T1 while i am T8. my best NUS kaki. this pic is one of the rare times we went clubbing. taken at MOS(i am such a bad influence) and yes... still planning a lo-mantic trip with him. how how how min???
current status: swinging single

Sunday, May 14, 2006 . 5:25 PM

>>> found this pict of ::CRYSTAL:: over the internet. to anyone who has seen her the pict seriously doesn't do her justice.

HAPPY MOM'S DAY to all~
and yes, today im finally gonna let my mom in on the news regarding the dog. praying to god that that nut dennis didn't buy her a dog for a pressy. yeahh .. starting my mini countdown to next week.

this is DAY7.

MARS SPEAKS:
"love is a many splendid things"
- well mr iceman78, thanx for dropping the mail. betcha riding high on some love-lorn bout.im glad for ya, but what's with the quote?! ya ain't getting my point are you? oh well .. some ppl just can't read simple english. bully for them

[headmusic]: just a girl by no doubt

Thursday, May 11, 2006 . 6:01 PM

::girl put your records on
tell me your favourite song
you go ahead let your hair down
sapphire and faded jeans
i hope you get your dreams
just go ahead let your hair down
you're gonna find yourself somewhere..somehow::

hazel asked me to work today and tomorrow
kill me plz

i wanna sleep. my ma is asking me to costa
she bought 4 jackets planning a europe trip (if your raising your eyebrow..so am i)i was like huh?!

kays its offical my bio clock is screwed
don't chase me to wake up. im tired

[headmusic]: sex and candy by marcy playground
[quotes]: "i can't sleep again!"

Wednesday, May 10, 2006 . 2:58 PM

p i feel stoned now
see, this is why i rather pontang work and curl up watching tv, eating pizza. or simply reading. i hope today is one of those days.

got pretty angry and sulky yesterday
some freaking hell customers just werent very nice and trying to sabo me with drinks. obviously i turn tail and ran to kp them to hazel and told her i gave up.

the place didn't have a waitress working so we were short of staff on a FULL HOUSE. omg what kinda place has a full house on tuesdays? freaking nuts right?

the boss told me a lame joke .but cannot translate to english cus it sounds weird.so i'm lazy .. shall type it out in hanyin pinyin . happy figuring it out:

she me dong si
baba(father) ke yi pai pai liang sia
nan peng you(bf) zi ke yi pai yi sia
dang lao gong(husband) bu nen pai
(its part if the female anatomy. and every female has it)

took me damn long la. i am THAT slow.
see if anyone knows/ heard before.

oh i recieved the email from joeann.
joeann is crystal's foster parents. very nice ppl. it was she and her husband who came down that day on sunday.

here's the mail:

Thing need to prepare:
1. Eagle Pack chicken flavour dry food. You can buy from Pasir Ris Pet mover mega mart as their price are cheaper. I can't provide her food to you as my current dog is also feeding on the same brand with her.
2. Nature Pet skin supplements - 2 pkt per day, mix with her food
3. Nuppro Joint supplement - Abt 2 tbsp, mix with her food. I have some balance left.
4. Some toys for her? she likes balls, chews esp. dog bone and those toys that produce sound. Actually I can bring hers to you.
5. A new lesh as her current one is a bit rusty
6. Ear cleaner, toothpaste n brush, nail cutter. I will give u her comb brush
7. Frontline - I will give u the balance btls for ticks prevention

She likes to go for walk, so maybe if you have time, you can bring her out twice daily to strengthen her leg bcos big dog need walking. If dun have time, then once a day will do. She also loves dog run, so if convenient, maybe you can bring her there for playtime.
She will follow us when unleash, but once she is unleash, she will run round n round then stop to follow us. But right now, i dun shld advise you to do that as she is still unfamiliar with your family. If not she ran away.

Term & Conditions (as indicated in the agreements, pls discuss with your parents and then inform me with any detail that you feel uncomfortable)

1.allow home visits by owner and foster parents to help with problems associated with new adoptions and to assist in adaptability of both adoptor and adoptee.

2.Adoptor must maintain contact with foster parents at ALL times throughout the ownership of the adoptee.

3.Adoptee must be vaccinated and sterilized at adopter抯 expense, if not done so already. Puppies must be vaccinated three times in their first year, in the 2nd, 3rd & 4th month, followed by yearly vaccinations.

4.Adoptee must be sterilized when they are at least 6 months' old, regardless of gender. At any time, adoptor should never attempt to breed the adoptee, if not yet sterilized at the time of adoption.

5. Adoptor must contact and be willing to work with foster parents on common problems associated with the introduction of the adoptee into their environment. At no time should the adoptor attempt to absolve his/her responsibility by abandoning the adoptee. Adoptor should return the adoptee(s) to foster parents, if in anytime, decides to give up.

6. Foster parents or owner should be informed of any changes of ownership, addresses, contact numbers etc.

7. This is a permanent adoption. Adopter is fully responsible for & must be committed to adoptee's health & welfare throughout his/her entire life span.

8. Owners or foster parents reserves the rights to obtain possession of the adoptee should there be evidence of abuse, i.e. extreme malnutrition, unnecessary beatings, ill treatment, and adoptor remains adamant about current treatment; or in the event when ANY of the above mentioned has been infringed.

9. Allow a 3 months probation before the official transfer of AVA licensed ownership, Adoptee’s pedigree certification. At any point that the adoptee is found unsuitable for the environment, foster parents or owner reserve the right to obtain the possession of the adoptee.

great. i gotta show my mum.
hope she is fine and wouldnt flip out. yawn k headache. i wanna sleep again!

[headmusic]: kiss you goodnight by dunno who (from listening too much to ktv! think i'll never go kbox again.. o man)
[quotes]: you are SO dead

Tuesday, May 09, 2006 . 2:59 PM

THEY'VE LET US ADOPT CRYSTAL!
o my god i could just die of joy anything bad could happen and i think ill still be grinning from ear to ear .. erm .. even getting smacked at 8-9 am in the morning. urgh

worked yester
its been a while. not that i'd love to call it work .. but it is. sighz. very tired cause although they say it'll end at 2 it didnt. left at 3.30am then got into this mitsubishi lancer (erm thats what the chauffer drives darn funny) and left.

never really liked duxton area
i never know why. always have this image of chachat ppl. sleazy bars etc. well yeap going there i saw a few. but stepping inside the place ppl were thankfully very nice, so were the customers (no tiko ah pek or pervts) which was great. that's why i decided to stay on and semi-work. i still wanna kick back and relax. dammit ... the work is sorta ruining plans but ahhh well at least i am kept bz. and yar i have to try upkeep my xbl.**ahemz

okie i hope i won't be killed for that.
haa.. prolly will kanna repercussions. *protects face

o teddy told me about expo having a flea market
was thinking wherthe i should join in the flea market and try to sell my stuff. i have too much clothes! o my god really have to clear the cupboard which is overflowing! so i don't even mind selling the stuff cheap. better then letting it rot. *nods

but the expo flea market is kinda far to drag all these stuff and yeah i do have A LOTTTTT of stuff. hmmm.. was more interested to contact the cineles fleamarket ppl.

anyone has the cinelesuire fleamarket ppl's contact?/ wanna set up shop with me plz contact me or tag. thanx.

shall go dig up the contact number from the magz and stuff later. bit lazy and feeling a headache killing me now. ok signing off.tonight there is work and i'm gonna meet mr tang to get some food first.

work work work..

[headmusic]: he sei mao yi by jay chou
[quotes]: what's my name again?!

ps: i really oughta start changing my name(perphaps like remove my surname *ahemz) . and yeah my dressing. that "sexy legs" zl is a neh neh cause he is shamelessly no better!

Monday, May 08, 2006 . 2:53 AM

TWO WORDS:
C.R.Y.S.T.A.L & DOTA

today i saw the prettiest of pretty girls
crystal.

absolutely gorgeous even my mum feel in love with her. erm i think.
crystal kept wanting to "hold" my hand. i wunder is that a sign of affinity?do dogs know who adore them? i seriously think they do. and i hope she does cause for me its a love at first sight. i am serious.

before she and the family came over till i woke up at 9 didnt sleep and only had like 2 hours. my stomach was flipping out and i wanted to throw up. erm who me ? nervous? nahhh .. *ahemzz

and yes.. im now keeping my fingers crossed she will be mine
(secret pray: dear god, pls let them call me soon ...)

o by the way,
crystal is a golden retriever looking for adoptive parents/home
she is the most adorable GR i have ever seen. and knowing me i have seen quite a few.. and she is sooooo like bobbi! i wanted to cry there and then. made me a little upset actually. i miss him always.. ok shant rattle on

*yawns
k sleepy agian.. *poof

[headmusic]: twinkle by someone from little india?
[quote]: i am a lousy friend. i apologise girl. truly truly sorry :~(

Sunday, May 07, 2006 . 2:48 AM

VENUS speaks out:

GUYS!! Lemme relate this REALLY LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG “story”.

I’ve got myself a funny guy friend, A, whom I used to be rather close to. Somehow, some things “complicated” us & we moved apart for a while.

For instance, we kinda got rather apart due to some “silly” confessions made. Now, we’re still friends, just not as close as before. It’s quite sad you see, cuz in the first place, he wuz the one who took the initiative to make things look like it’s “happenin”… But, no, it wuzn’t so! Few months after “bein apart” & not meetin up, we kinda met up cuz of mutual friends who wanna have a gatherin & stuff. So we finally met again… After months of him “bein busy”, he managed to take some time off. Even after me askin him out cuz we stay so close, it never happened. Well wuz rather glad to see him again & talk & be happy for the few hours. We talked again. Well, if you say contactin for a few minutes at times durin bored days, yes. I actually wanted to meet up again for coffee & pass some stuff over to him & he said things like, “right we’ll meet some time this weekend… I’ll call you…” I’ve heard this line a million & one times. Well, probably not so much, but it’s already too hard to believe. But I actually still took it. I don’t know why, I probably wuz silly. Hah. Cuz he NEVER CALLED even after sayin he’d call, he’d call. What bullcrap! But we managed to meet again for some coffee, cuz of mutual friend AGAIN, & that’s when I managed to pass him the stuff & talk again. Amazin. There wuz one day I saw him some place with this girl with him. I asked him jokingly about who wuz there with him & he said somethin like, “oh it’s my guy friend.” I wuz thinkin, yeah right. Cuz HELLO?? It wuz OBVIOUSLY a girl. But anyway, somehow got to ask him somethin about that “girl” when I finally passed him the stuff. He said somethin like, “oh you know, we all have people we like & so we meet up for drinks & stuff, but we’re not datin. How hilarious. Words & pictures show that it’s actually hilarious, cuz what he says’ so untrue!!

He asked me a favor quite recently to help out somethin. & I agreed without much thinkin. I dunno why I wuz so silly to AGREE!! Sigh, but I did! & I wuz rather tired after the whole thing. Maybe I felt obliged, but I dunno why. I questioned myself – did I still care?? Well, maybe I did. But now, I think to myself. This person ain’t worth carin so much for! I told my mum about this incident which happened… She told me to FORGET IT, this guy’s useless. I can get someone better. But of cuz, after knowin his rubber time, him cheatin me about stuff… I still helped him with this favor. I spent nights without sleep. I didn’t sleep in the day even cuz I wuz afraid I wouldn’t be able to wake up to his calls. I didn’t eat cuz he told me we’d dine together. I did the finishin in the end, even after he said he’d do the rest of it. He asked for help but didn’t even tell me to stop & go take a rest, so I just completed it. He managed to sleep after the whole thing wuz done. I couldn’t cuz I had an interview early in the morning & had to prepare. We even had our “first quarrel” cuz of this favor. Both were super tired & stressed. He said he owes me a big one but I WONDER when’s it humanly possible, with his super tight time, to have that dinner. He seems to be rather RUBBER TIME when it comes to dealin with friends. Or is it just me? Seriously, he doesn’t stick to his time. GOSH!! He told me somethin like, “I’ll be there by max 8+pm.” But by 11pm, I’ve not eaten & I’ve not been given an estimated time that he’ll be back. So I’m left sittin like a silly nut till 1 friggin am, with people questionin me, “why are you still waitin? why did you even do him this favor when you knew what type of person he is?” I wanna tell them he’s not that bad. But when things like this happens, how can he not be THAT BAD? Man…

You see, the problem of another is, the “girl” is B. A is kinda datin B. Well, people say so. I can see so. But A says B isn’t his girl friend. & that B is a guy! Oh… When will he ever be right? I mean, come on… It’s not like I’ll be depressed with the answer that he IS DATIN HER. I don’t give. I don’t even care. I’d even congratulate you. So why should A hide me from that fact? When people I know, & he knows, know they are datin. Like hello? He doesn’t even have any idea I have friends who’s actually a friend of B. & I have EVIDENCE that B is a girl. A REAL girl, not a guy like he said she wuz. I mean, does he tell B I’m a guy too?? Man… who knows!!!

Well, what I’m tryin to say is… I think he wants love. From me, from B. some of the friends I’ve talked to about this say so. He doesn’t wanna “lose” me. In a way, I can feel he still cares. But by bluffin me, you’re not carin!! Your just cheatin me. & I hate bein cheated on. Which girl doesn’t? Well, if I wuz THAT desperate for him, I would’ve chased him to be my guy months ago… I wouldn’t even stop him from goin now. He can go if he wants to. But he’s still a friend. So, WHY CAN’T FRIENDS BE HONEST? GUYS!!! JUST. BE. HONEST!!!! Don’t understand man…

[editorial note]: and NO it is not yours truly writing this. boys and girls, im letting you guys air your views on my blogger. this is OFFICAL. i am simply an amused bystander admist the rubble. all postings will be nameless unless cleared by author of the postings (this applies to both genders) all you have to do is email me with your side of the story. it will be posted.

all i can do is simply sit back-
RELAXXX
and let the cat and dog fight begin. erm sorry, i mean mars vs venus..

cheers :)

i stand politically incorrect but i do wanna make my stand. so let me

OK. today was the release of the election results.
kept watching the newscaster melvin yeong trying to curb his fits of laughter. darn funny. keep thinking how my dylan loh looks like him too. o man..

the election results as follows
PAP 82 seats SDA: 1 seat WP:1 seat (total 84 seats)
aljunied had a really close match. 56% to 43% ? hmmm.. i hope i get my figures right and not offend anyone. ahh well . it was interesting watching the whole thing. teeths grited. forced smiles. absolute pain and discomfort put aside. and all for the camera.. sighz

wonder if we all said what we really felt
think that would be even more interesting now wouldn't it?
hmmm... for a person like me who hardly keeps track of stuff in the political scene i think it was an eye opener.

i am as usual amused.

before all this chaos
me, leo , my mum and uncle d were at this prata stall near the old SMU. told my mum about the foster parenting and the GR that may come to the house. she didnt say anything but questioned me regarding the dog. just felt bit sad cus shadow wasnt a pure breed, maybe if he was my mum would wanna keep him. why discriminate on the breeds? isnt a dog's love all the same?

my mum told me :
" michelle having a dog means you got to wash him, feed him, clean up the mess and the shit everyday.. do so many things but i keep seeing the maid do it. so why keep a dog whenyou can't handle it? when you play with bobbi yet not treat him as a daily chore? all you do is help out like what .. once a month?"

i asked her then:
" mum, then i ask you a simply question. a dog is not dumb and IF what you say is true, wouldn't the dog KNOW who cares for it more , thus naturally go to be with that person? since you say the maid has been taking care of bobbi and i hardly did anything... then why does bobbi rather stick with me out of all you people. and especially not the maid, but ME?"

she didn't reply.

i think it was a crazy reply. i told her to consider it.

[headmusic]: head over feet by my fav alanis morrisette
[quote]: i'll wait

ps: bobbi .. i really miss you.
pps: the GR=golden retriever is a female. im being screened by the foster parent tomolo at 10am. im so nervous i could just die. **keeps fingers crossed

Saturday, May 06, 2006 . 4:13 AM

Nix: Women women women… I’m gonna start embarking on an age old argument on the queries of women being women. A perfect example would be, I DON’T WANNA WRITE THIS ARTICLE! However, Michelle! Insisted I write this column! God… What in the world am I doing listening to her?! Moreover, I’m certain that there will be huge repercussions from my actions… So why why why?

me: Already before the male antagonist can start defending his sex erm “race” whatever mr lim has been defending all nite long to me. He ko-ed. Great. Perhaps he gave up on the male species and rather go sleep. Haa. That’s a thought.

Anyway met leo and nix spent time as mastero’s again
Still like the place. Was a little down. Laffed a lot hearing about the funny shit and rubbish I did on Wednesday. O man. I really am lame. Dammit. So un-cool. (plz just kill me lah huh next time) realize I was spouting nonsense and really not making sense. Argh lame.

Kays so nix’s been trying to semi-cheer me up with his usual racist joke. A thousand jokes per hour he was spouting. Really did make me laff actually. Terrible of me. Ahh well ..
He left me with these few lines before he just ko-ed

“you know the saying “Two's a company, Three's a crowd?
Well, I think two’s company, three is the OUTCOME...”
then he ask me
“Why do we associate our feet with our noses?” I was like huh ? ”As in our feet actually smells, and we get runny noses?” I gave I really ahemzzz look there and then.

And just like magic that nutter died on me. With out defending his sex which the whole night he spent argue-ing with me about the niceities of the male species and how misconstrued they really were. Of course I was shock by certain revelations.and yeah i was siding the girlies and saying my piece. i think i gave my 100000000000000000000000 cents worth and got rebuked and congradulated and slammed and pitied at the same time. sympathy for the dead. thank you very much.

The fact he is Mr Nice Guy I knew, (of course after 10 years of friendship) but I was shocked with how he dealt with certain girls who in my book were over zealous but I guess they really did care about him. Perhaps telling them to screw off and not care about them was right. But then was it? Of course they were the meanies who I too thought they were psychotic. Great.

Mars and venus really equal hell. this debate will continue stay tuned boys and girls

as for me,
I rather die an amoeba.

[quote]: be a mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn... do the RIGHT THING !
**************** mega eye roll

ps: i walked home. im tired.

Friday, May 05, 2006 . 6:06 PM

im tired testing this
a HUGE thank you to tang and zl (hmm... i dunno who did what) but yeay i finally got the image up.

i have a boring day lined up
tutioning later. actually i should move my butt.

here is me signing off
as the grateful dead. just let me be.

[quotes]:just do what the "porn" image tell ya to. i'll do the same.

[editorial note]: o i recieved info that it wasneither tang nor zl who helped. it was IRENE. thank you irene very much. guys are useless... *ahemz :)

i hate graveyards
the drink i mean.

met leo at the last offical paper of NUS sch life. its over. thank goodness. erm. it better be over man. anyway, met leo at coronation plaza to go fair price and grab food. we wind up buying 4 huge packets of enoki, 1 bag of kai lan, fishballs, tau kua, seafood flavoured soup base, all these to add on to the crab meats, abalone, tomatos, prawns etc for the huge steamboat for two. really was quite massive, luckily gorgia the tenant walked in and joined in finishing the food.

seriously full
had a beer to wash down all the loads of food but wound up feeling even fuller.
sexy lady joined us ard 10 and we all watched harry potter while me and leo were the last man ermm.. girls standing eating the steamboat. i wanna burp thinking about all that food. me and leo were taking snap shots of the food. i even took a video.

we changed took a cab down to ms
double o had no Q thank god. i looked at sexy and she looked at me " right , lucky no Q if not i bet we'll just tell the uncle go zouk now" sexy laffed at me and agreed.

lemme see what i drank .. goddamn awful killer
5 shots of rasberry/ribena shooters
6 whisky dry
1 teq shot (sexy and me drank before we left)
1 beer (for dinner)
1 graveyard(zouk)

actually looking at the list it aint impressive.
think the impressive and crap thing was that i drank all that within an hour at double o .
Y.E.S really. i know it was an hour because i was the offical timer and i timed us to leave the darn techno place asap to drag our butts to zouk.

at zouk thats when everything started going downhill
i did something stupid. im so sorry.
drinking really makes me stupid. do stupid things and absolutely despise myself the next day. its the second time i yelled. second time i did hurt you. i am sorry .. you can't imagine

i even made phonecalls i can't recall
and yeah i heard i was being darn bitchy. oh no .. *_*" damn bad lah.

and yes
the hell after was worse. today woke up feeling like shit. grabbed a cab to sia training centre. did the swimming and was okie. helplessly stood there while being scrutinised. then changed into the horrendous kabaya which everyone cant move/ cant breathe and wanted to die.

and haa no only one girl got picked to carry on
and no that girl isnt me. -shrugs- so be it. i still have one last try that i am allowing myself. some other time or something. since sch is semi over i want to kick back and shop, eat, play, drink, mj, lose my mind and simply just go mad. i miss going mad. something the old me was always running around doing. sighs

good time to read my nonsense books!
thinking if i should re-read my harry potter books. last time working in tannlines didnt really get to fully enjoy reading cause work and reading was half half. (hmmm... should i go back to tannlines to work?) hmmmmmmmmm... alotta hmmmmmmms. feel like im suffering some warped mid life crisis way too early. ah well .. we'll see

teddy asked me about SSF (singapore street fest)
i was like huh ? whats SSF? anyway don't mind seeing everyone agian. prolly would be fun esp since i havent got much ta do now. yuppers.

to those out there reading (friends and enemies alike )yeshhhh
i am offically free
date me out. sms me cus my phone is screwed. thx
i think i have put down alot of coffy dates etc. oh hell man .. okie get back to me ya?:) bloody shameless of me huh. ah well hell with it.

::I’m coming out of my cage
And everything is just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
And I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go I just can’t look, its killing me

And taking control Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes I’m Mr Brightside::

[headmusic]: broken by seether feat amy lee
[quote]: drinks kill. disappointment maims. this is why i alway pick to drink
: people are so full of shit these days i think they should start carrying portable loos
: my propensity to be stupid is at and all time high. i am so not amused.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006 . 4:10 AM

met the usuals
in the end i was the freaking earliest!o my god how rare..
anyways, rouge was not open today so we all went acid. thought abt No5 but didnt go in the end. ah well. so much for trying to be innovative.

leo was bz trying to fig out what on earth to do for my hair
gdness i also dunno man. girl help me think ya? sighz.. and as for sexy, she was enjoying the music.

by the end of the night me and leo were conned by the "asses" into going to balcony
didnt know wherthe to laugh or cry. sigh. was there had a virgin mary. everyone kept asking if it wasnt a bloody mary. how rare tt im not having alcohol.issit? ahemzzz.. have some faith ya know.

all i clocked in for drinks was a red wine, and the mocktail
yups. quite proud of myself
but me , leo and sexy were already deviously planning wednesday night. ha. *wicked grin. sexy is gonna be off and leo is absolutely on about it. perphaps figure something out that day. hmm.. i already have a previous engagement. ah well should focus first on work before all these "HUGE" plans. actually just wanna curl up and slp. mahjong or monopoly!

me and leo kept thinking of subvert sessions and how we should go for it agian.
sighz. how strange. chatted about alotta funny things. nice to see everyone again. its been a while. really.

meanwhile i heard the guys were mad
from sim crawling to nus "semi-braving" to kip the princess company. really princess man. tut tut. o well think they mugged alot. made me feel guilty. rather kip this picture in my mind that they were all warcraft-ing. i'll feel alot better

shout outs:

tang: bloody shameless. betcha STILL reading this crap of mine. neh neh

zl: and if you are .. aloooo~ (ahemz.. i am bias!)

princess aka your highness aka the king of the world: good luck for the papers hor. mug then slp

girl: die lahhhh hair howwwww??!! arhhhhh ... !!!

on a more private note:
im sorry it is in my nature to build walls. i can't help it. with me you need patience. and to talk to me slowly so id understand. then stay.

for you i'll try
show me you are too

[headmusic]: art in me by jars of clay

Monday, May 01, 2006 . 2:09 PM

been going crazy catching up on my sleep
i kinda understand how chin chin feels now sleeping all day. no wonder he goes crazy running everywhere when i put him in the offic. *mimics braveheart: you can take our lives but you'll never take our freeee-dooooom! im mad. serious

past two days have been rather amusing, shocking leaving me in somewhat disbelief
i think i've been on a high cause of lack of sleep. felt dazed through the day. was amazed i actually can last for so long on my feet.haix.

lemme see what happened
went for the craziest waste of time interview ever
shamelessly it was the SIA interview. (i bet everyone is rolling their eyes) yesshh i DID go.went with leo and got so tired waiting. never seen so many girls all cramed into a hall/erm,, various halls before. it was THAT intimidating. started wundering if i was seeing double the true amount cause i was so darn sleepy and stress over methods and practises paper

had fun with the group of nutters
chatted and kept laughing. cant stand it i was sooooooo disgustingly sleepyish yet i was awake. not bad. i think they were amazed even i was amazed at my stamina to ren.it was a funny nite.. chatted with zl, amazed with group loyalty.actually in short i am just simply amazed by everything that happened.

somethings go by so surreal-ly ..
really

am i happy?
yes.

[headmusic]: disappear by hoobastank
[quote]: owner of a bear