Friday, February 09, 2007 . 11:53 AM
been sickthink the word "sick" is is highly under-rated and simply doesn't cut it for the way i've been feeling but ... but okie. so i am not well.
its been years. think the last time i had a sinus full-on attack was when i was in JC1. feel kinda miserable now. i comfort myself at least its not as bad as before. asthma did not set in. if not i think i'll just die and not go work forever. now i simply have 24/7 headaches/flu/fever/cough/sore throat. thought i was getting better but yesterday i threw up three times ! that was like a pile of food around midnight. stomach very quezy now. i don't know what's wrong with me. been to the docs twice and im so tired already and im refusing to go anymore. i don't see why i should spend good money on bad doctors that cure nothing and make me sleepy and sick all day.
i want to apologies to everyone for MIA-ing,
i've been sick for 2 weeks plus and counting. im not getting better but i hope soon. days that i AM AWAKE is rare. im either at work feeling sick or dead on medication at home. i hate this feeling too. i want to complain about doctors suppling this crazily small yellow pill. and there is another pink mini pill which is so powerful it can knock out an elephant. i don't know who made those two pills but i bet although i can't cure my sinus for nuts, it definately is an A* solution for the insomniacs. TRUST ME on that
now i am sitting at work feeling sick. stomach aint feeling good
mum's been feeding me weird pills lately and along with the doctor's medication i've lost my appetite. havent been eating alot lately too. i hope this doesn't last. nothing worse then feeling shitty all day and stuck with work
a highlight of the week was THE INTERVIEW!
i lost my voice completely and some very very gross but POWERFUL medicine (esp the weird chinese medicine)i managed to find some voice to squeeze out for the interview.3 women i was scared shitless. nevertheless i tried.
first question:"have you always wanted to teach?"
answer:" actually, to tell you the truth..ermm..NO. i thought it was one of the worst occupations one could take on..but along the way many things changed my mind.. blah blah blah"
they actually laughed and agreed.
i wonder is that a good sign.hmmm.. well it'll take 15 working days peeps before i actually know the outcome wherthe i actually screwup or got it. im silently freaking out but as usual maintain my super cool exterior. i CAN handle it.
ok *big sigh
back to staring at the computer and doing more work. i still feel sicky in the pits of my stomach. suppose to meet the gang but i hope the boys forgive me for cancelling. really really REALLY not feeling too good. niam me when im better ok?
::Everything::
Find me here, and speak to me
I want to feel You, I need to hear You
You are the light that's leading me to the place
Where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the light to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything
And how can I stand here with You
And not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms and You give me rest
You hold me in Your hands
You won't let me fall
You still my heart and You take my breath away
Would You take me in, take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this ?
ps: thanks for the card. i think its sweet. what a way to bribe me to forgive you. how kelong
