Thursday, February 23, 2006 . 4:53 PM
[tall story]ai ni yi wan nian
suddenly thought it would be a nice name for a pet. just like the sword.cant imagine repeating it so many times though
it is said : that pain is not standing in front of the person and wondering if you love that person of not. it is loving that person and not being able to be together.
(absolute direct translation from chinese words)
as usual,
sloppy me fell for the lines and wanted to cry.i never knew why i try to deny the fact that i am sentimental. guess i just hate the fact that i feel like such a wuss.
anyways i saw you while i was going there
strange that i would notice when i was simply zoning out on the bus. then i remembered what you said to me. fate gave me the last goodbye you talked about. you thought i was talking about someone else. how ironic. but i hate explainations. so i never did give one.nor did i call
felt so lousy that i only survived 2 beers and sum strange drink
think cause havent been really eating for the past few days so i was like so weak.wanted to faint but managed to walked with my head held high till i went to the toliets. thank god. i still dont even know why i care so much about my image. should i be like everyone else and let it fall into a ditch?
..tonight there is some cook out by adeline
first time i hear some cook out thingy that's not at my place. i hope i manage to rise to the occasion and not fall into some sudden stupid depression. something is not very right with my brain recently. like some thing broke.but what? i realise that im watsing my time being silly. just that im still clawing myself out. just give me time. either way i know seeing you would make the day some what better, yet sometimes i do the absolute ego thing of not.
[the 10 commons of life]:
1.thou shall not run into the arms of the one you want so shamlessly. you must save your own face.
2.thou shall not covert everything not thou's and unfair
3.thou shall not be an arse and spit fire
4.thou shall not steal
5.thou shall love thy partner as thyself. remember thy neighbour too plus friends around
6.thou shall remember that adultery is only real when thee have a commitment
7.thou shall honor thy mother and no one else that is not family
8.thou shall partake in daily bread and remember to eat or you might suffer the concequences when thy drinketh thy wine
9.thou shall smile when thee's heart breaketh to cease another's pain
10.thou shall get better soon
great im being cynical blasphemous and stupid.
forgive me all nice chirstians reading this. i didn't mean it =) believe me that i am okie.
so let me go
go mad
lose myself
i'll crawl my way back
[headmusic]: my december by linkin park
