Friday, June 30, 2006 . 2:52 AM
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i just sorta glanced through my previous posts..
sounds kinda down.but not all was. bully for me
damn.
its been a bad enough week.
i had a bad enough day.
my mood was immediately lifted by a nice and very sweet surprise
the night was screwed. thank you mum so much for causing a huge misinterpretation
im not big on explanations so..
das ist alles.
stuff tomorrow:
~tution at 1pm
~meeting mr neo at 3pm(die such a rush)
~stageit performance at 7pm
(too such a big rush.. all i can say is .. i wish you were still here)
::I'm gonna live my life
Like every day's the last
Without a simple goodbye
It all goes by so fast
And now that you've gone
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now
Gonna open my eyes
And see for the first time
I let go of you
Like a child letting go of his kite
There it goes, up in the sky
There it goes, beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now
Gonna look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is an empty chair
And now that you've gone
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now::
Sunday, June 25, 2006 . 11:54 PM
::Here I go,scream my lungs out and try to get to you,
you are my only one.
I let go,
there's just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only,
my only one::
Friday, June 23, 2006 . 6:02 AM
IN PREP FOR COMMENCEMENTWhat graduates should do during the ceremony:
After you have finished putting on your academic dress, please proceed to the Auditorium. All graduates should be seated at least 20 minutes before the ceremony start time. At the entrance, the ushers will check your Attendance Card and show you to the seat. The seat number is indicated on the Attendance Card.
The Graduate Attendance Card is required for the Ceremony Official to read out your name (and prizes, if any) when you are presented on stage. Thus, please hold the Attendance Card in your hand or put it inside the pocket of your academic dress. If you have forgotton to bring the Attendance Card, please report to the ushers at the entrance of the Auditorium for a replacement.
When the ceremony begins, please stand up to welcome the academic procession. Please continue to stand when the National Anthem is played. You may sit down after the Presiding Officer has declared the ceremony open.
When it is time for your graduating cohort to be presented on stage, the ushers will lead you up the stage. Please remember to hold the Attendance Card in your hand and give it to the student helpers manning the barcode reader. As the names of the graduates will be read out in the sequence that the Attendance Cards are scanned, please do not change position with your fellow graduates after you have given the Attendance Card to the student helpers.
There are two red lines on the stage. You should wait at the 2nd line and move to the 1st line when the graduate standing in the 1st line has walked out to the centre of the stage. When your name is called, walk to the Presiding Officer at the centre of the stage. Shake hands with the Presiding Officer and receive the degree scroll from him. Muslim graduates who do not want to shake hands should hold a copy of the Commencement Book in their hand.
Towards the end of the ceremony, the valedictorian will deliver a speech. The National Anthem will be played and the academic procession sitting on the stage will first leave the Hall. Please follow the instructions of the ushers to leave after the academic procession.
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[headmusic]: songs for tomorrow. (should i even bother to go? lazy again)
Tuesday, June 20, 2006 . 8:13 PM
@ stella's place right nowteddy, peng, yong peng, stella and me. the usual gang is playing their mahjong while im doing this.
shall attempt to send out some resumes now
bit idiotic of me but at least i am doing something. i dun get myself sometimes, i reject jobs which come to me handed on a platter, yet try and seek out new opportunities and other jobs. i think im just playing hard to get in a very strange way. tsk
i did a good thing today
i landed myself a DECENT part time job. and yesh, everyone who knows me would know i love F&B plus it comes easily to me. so yeah it is another server job. i now erm.. well soon would work for CREAM BRISTRO located at pacific plaza!
i decided to grow up and at least kill off all my weird nite jobs.
of course by doing that i am cutting myself off of a better salarylike by 50 % but i want to do this for myself.a CLEAN CUT BORING DECENT job. i want to be better maybe cause i have been yelled at too many times. maybe cause i feel i wanna be more mature and less crappy and stuck with lame shitified jobs. dunno ... whatever the case i want to do this. i have to.
in the mean while i plan to get a FULL TIME DECENT JOB
really . i got tired thinking of part time. i should be old-er. i should join my peers. everyone who is graduating winds up in suits and all. even yong peng who i just saw today he was bz chasing for a perm job. he too was dressed up exec style.
maybe i am suffer PEER PRESSURE... o man
sounds so 14 year old.
either way its a good thing no?
i think you'll be proud of me when im finally settled down with all this job mambo-jumbo. i'll make sure
[head music]: when i grow up by celebrity skin
Monday, June 19, 2006 . 11:44 AM
few things you can do:1. fuck up a good thing going
2. knowingly fuck it up
3. fuck up everyone's perception of you by showing the big sad assed screw up you can be
4. sit alone and suffer the mind fuck as a repercussion of it all
fucking up the only way to go so they say.
can someone please remind me again.
why? why why why why why why why why why ?
i need my bitches in full power yelling at me again
before i start thinking what to do with myself.
finger fumbling is definately not a good sign. i must be at a lost. stupid me.
da bitches: i am weak. so sue me
girl: for once you got it all wrong.ok..
i feel like taking a walk in the rain now
[headmusic]: niki's theme by espen lind
Thursday, June 15, 2006 . 2:40 PM
::SUPERWOMAN::Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That use to greet me.
Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me.
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurting so deep
I've got my pride I will not cry
But it's making me weak.
I'm not your Superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
As a token of love from you to me.
Ooh, baby...
I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk
You'd like to think I'm just crazy
When I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride
I will not cry
Still I can't help but care
I'm not your Superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
As a token of love from you to me.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006 . 3:07 PM
now @ CIT room photoshoot...pretending to look bz .. so i am MAKING myself bz by blogging
o made a new friend today called PEI ~
how strange .. and yeah i did smile when i heard the name. michelle leong's friend. 3 year and also doing lit! how funny. both she and me keep getting kp-ed by the photographer about our hair falling into our face ruining the shot -_-"
ps: she is h.o.t
suddenly i thought about what you said yester
sometimes i wish you would explain yourself more to me. i keep feeling that somehow somewhere along the lines of a decent conversation you purposely floated yourself out of it. then agian .... nothing does matter that much to you so i don't try and chase after what i lost and didn't manage to know.
is it humanely possible to seem to know yet not know someone?
then i wind up feeling stupid
like its day one all over agian.
anyway today we are hosting together.
plaza singapura @ 8-10 pm
first time. i dunno how it will go.
you never know what to expect with mr lim ..
[dumb thoughts]: that if could be nice-r does that mean i'd be loved more? .. i swear im bordering on the very thin lines of pure insanity
Tuesday, June 13, 2006 . 2:33 AM
::THAT I WOULD BE GOOD::That I would be good even if I did nothing
That I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That I would be good if I got and stayed sick
That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds
That I would be good fine even if I went bankrupt
That I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
That I would be great i if was no longer queen
That I would be grand if I was not all knowing
That I would be loved even when I numb myself
That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy
That I would be good even if I lost sanity
That I would be good whether with or without you
PHOTO WHORES @ WORK. (DAY 1 OF THE WORLD CUP)
the usual suspects: sexy , moi and leo
check us out. haaa.. sexy and her funny face!
leo and her "ic photo" shot. darn cute
these two keep amusing themselves lor taking pics from every angle! this pic..erm.. is suppose to be .. erm.. a scarey pose????
sake bar @ chimes with sis and her gang . plz CHECK OUT mr justin. the guy in pink next to her.. haaa.. *ahemzzz
all smiles. as usual
i would love to tell you that just like in that linkin park song "in the end" nothing really matters. perphaps its true.it doesn't matter cause it's all over and nothing can be saved but it hurts.i think that part does matter.i think it matters THE MOST.
at times i seems to suffer temporary insanity
temporary panic attacks
feels like slipping into some hell-hole abssy where not even you could find me.
i tend to fall and i don't even know why. looking at you i think you could give me a leg up or perphaps push me deep under ground to die. i think you do both.
makes me wonder if you would even care to look if i disappear. or then perphaps you would stand by the side lines and shrug you shoulders at me. that's right. it wasn't you..you didn't even know or even remotely guess i could feel this way. tortured and in hell. that's right. so now you do know. learn something new everyday. keeps the brain active.
so you tell me you don't care or care selectively and you are so dead tired
that you do not believe me, my word, my pain, my hell. and that indirectly you are getting tired of me. perphaps i think too much. perphaps not.
then you take my heart
craved out fresh from my breast bone and plunk it on a platter and tossed it to the junkyard. giving it a few kicks every now and then.
thanks baby . you really are one in a million.
oh but you know that already don't you?
that's why i am with you.
[headmusic]: qing tian by jay chou
[thoughts]: the omen... and ominioous signssssssssss
Friday, June 09, 2006 . 3:30 AM
::somebody::I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....
ps: mr kwok now drives a CLK 350. erm did i get that right?
[headmusic]: one more try by A1
Thursday, June 08, 2006 . 4:57 PM
PARTYING @PHUTURE 7/6
me and leo getting ready to BLING the party
me, andy and leo @ phuture chillin and playing 5-10
good ol' mr walking shoes... kenneth my mum's fav, me and leo posing!
leo's fav photo
my sis's smu gang dying at the end of the nite outside the prata store. 1...2...3... haa..
leo and **ahemzzz... so cute together !
me and nixx lim. our 2nd/3rd photo shot after 10 years of knowing each other. omg ..
sleepy yet posing in the bus on the way back.check out my eyebags! she was going to give it all away today
it was her birthday yet i watched her walk away from everything she ever dreamt about.everything she thought she wanted before..
so she said her goodbyes with a final nonchanlent nod and watched as he walked off
cool i thought.
the girl was so darn cool. i could have applauded in my sleep
then i realise she was staring into space
heppily flipping through some photographs.
laughing at me and flicking water into my face.
"come lets swim" and she smiled.
so fast out of her system.
how cool i thought.
how cold.
leaning against a telephone booth she laughed at me.
suddenly, she stopped laughing.
she was clutching her birthday pictures in her hands and started to cry
"o my god..!" she said.
i looked up.
then she started running.
running out the door
out of the booth
out of the building.
"xing fu" she cried as turned back at me
and i stood with my mouth gaping when i saw her run. i was confused.
what did those words mean. why say that to me? why was she running?to where to whom and most importantly why?
i walked to pick the fallen photographs
1st photo: i saw a picture of them
2nd photo:a picture of cake ice-ing
3rd photo: some blurry photo shot
then i looked at them again.
closer.
1st photo: i saw a picture of them
2nd: i saw a picture of icing from a top of the cake. the picture was flooded with animals, words, letters and at the bottom i was them. those dreadful words: "xing fu" in bold staring right at me in the face
3rd picture: a candid shot of a blurred table. i looked harder at the and realise the name of the guy was spelt unside down on the blurred shot. so inconspious i was stunned to realise the wriggly writing was his name in the photo.
every other shot i started flipping throught all held a key to ever happy moment with him.
everything she just threw away minutes before.
i felt sick suddenly
i think my knees grow weak.
i had to lean agianst the wall.
suddenly the building, with the pool, with the water, with all its grandeur and splendor didn't seem so great anymore.
i had to sit down.
i knew then excately where she was heading then
to say she was sorry.
to spill out in her own words to proclaim a thousand years of love
to tell him the pictures told all.
and that she was wrong.
that she was wrong all along
after so many years, finally she say those which i myself could never say..
and then i woke up from my dream.
i feel awful and my head spins in every direction
i think i need a glass of warm water either that or a fatal shot to the head
what sleep. i feel like i was running all through out. damn .. how awful.
i think back on the girl of my dreams..
im still hoping she really found her voice.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006 . 3:22 PM
it's a rule of thumb.never make someone your everything.
after so long i thought i actually spilled as much blood as i could
trying to talk everything out. the best and the worse. i seriously don't believe i left anything out but you fucked up. you didn't listen
thanks.
its times like these i feel like an outsider looking on on my own life.
floating without control. so say you want you want to hear.
and to some bitches who just have nothing nice to say:
erm... what's your name again ??
{another secret rule of thumb
you can trust a scorpio words when you finally realise their heart is breaking}
you should have believed me when i said cleared everything and everything else.
it only hurts when you just don't.
you should believe when i say i am there. cause everyone else doesn't matter anymore to me.
yet you don't see.
all you see is "scandelous" wish i had earned some trust .
SSF WAS TIRING
during the debreifing session i wished i could say "ehhh instead of 2 sessions of hype there was 6 sessions of chaos. i think we are all tired." but nahhhh didn't say. how guai of me :)
miss apple li was nice and came down with jo to sa hi
that woman brought me nuggets and watermelon juice! thanx a mill !!!!!! at least someone was feeding me. haa. but seriously it was sweet. then me and apple headed off to party. erm it wasn't much of a party but yeah whatever.
list of peeps i saw:
~ann
~miss a
~ren ai aka nikk
~carol
~suilin and partner
~adeline's ex
~monica and sis
most were all glimpses of them and quick chat. thats about it.
miss ren ai was telling about her new found love and about her breakup. sounds a bit ironic. hmmm.. anyways, gdluck im sure everything will be fine. JUST BE SINCERE yeah? jia you
okie... sorry about the seriousness of the front bit. just that nixx's msn kinda set me off.ha.. that nut. kays sorry to go ballistic on ya guys. taaaaa... gotta go crumpler and cine.
those passing through you can catch me and dylan @ cinelesuire hosting from 6-8pm. i hope i keep my vulgarities down to me myself anf mr dylan. NOT the entire of cineles. haaaa... **keeps fingers crossed
[headmusic]: i am not what you want by cat power
[thought]: sore throat! who's gonna tc of me ?!
Monday, June 05, 2006 . 6:16 PM
JOKE :A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done.
The monsignor replied, "When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. If I start to get nervous, I take a sip."
So next Sunday he took the monsignors advice. At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He proceeded to talk up a storm. Upon his return to his office after mass, he found the following note on the door
1. Sip the Vodka, don't gulp.
2. There are 10 commandments, not 12.
3. There are 12 disciples, not 10.
4. Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.
5. Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.
6. We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J.C.
7. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior and the Spook .
8. David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.
9. When David was hit by a rock and knocked off his donkey, don't say he was stoned off his ass.
10. We do not refer to the cross as the "Big T"
11. When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, "Take this and eat it for it is my body." He did not say "Eat me."
12. The Virgin Mary is not called "Mary with the Cherry."
13. The recommended grace before a meal is not: Rub-A- Dub-Dub thanks for the grub, yeah God.
14. Next Sunday there will be a taffy pulling contest at St. Peter's, not a peter pulling contest at St. Taffy's.
>>joke courtesy of miss apple li :) ::I've been dying inside, little by little
No where to go, but going out of my mind, in endless circles
Running from my self until you give me a reason for standing still
'Cause I want you, and I feel you, driving underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burning, to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded I'm half the man I thought I would be- But you can have what's left of me
It's falling faster, barely breathing
Give me something to believe in
Tell me it's all in my head
Take what's left of this man
Make me whole- once again
'Cause I want you, and I feel you, driving underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burning, to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded I'm half the man I thought I would be- But you can have what's left of me
I've been dying inside, you see I'm going out of my mind, out of my mind I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left,
will you take what's left
will you take what's left of me? ::
>>nick lachey
(taken from a msg i recieved in my friendster)
JeRemy wrote:
ya know, looking at your pictures, you kinda
remind me of a chameleon. you fit PERFECTLY(and i kid you NOT) with the classy elegant outfits AND the rocker chick persona, which is a tall feat in my humble opinion. but personal fav though is your hair. LOVE IT! where did you get it done? gosh i sound so gay..... you like naruto huh? the recent episodes have gotten pretty lame duncha think? if you like dat, then i'd highly recommend BLEACH. synopses: its abt grim reapers, well not that grim in this show but you get the picture. its abt how a high school kid attains the powers of a soul slayer by matter of circumstance and how he continues to grow to become a force to be reckoned with in a world full of evil spirits and spirit-slayer half breeds. i may not have done justice to the immensely funny anime, but really if naruto's the genre you like, then bleach is the next anime to be getting!!
Till The Rain Bows,
Jerms
>>erm.. i do? ha. thanx jerms.
o im pasting this up to boost my ego a lil bit. havent had many semi- compliments for a darn long while now. *Sighz. plus im falling sick now... throat feels icky.. think its the flu.damn.tea and sympathy plz~
ps: wanted to upload some photos but blogger is condemned at the moment.next time then
Sunday, June 04, 2006 . 3:42 AM
STUFF TO DO WHEN YA CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT: POST PICS UP ONLINE TO WAKE EVERYONE ELSE UP!
animal paints
my fav pic! wonder women erm.. who looks ..like she needs a wonder bra.hmmm..
a first for me: erm an exotic hybrid of barney!
and yeah.. of of the worst sights. clowns ! clowns are evil i tell you .. and erm .. very nude :P
Saturday, June 03, 2006 . 10:05 PM
edited version: FIRST DAY OF SSF PROGRAMMES IN EFFECT:the partners in crime:
dylan and michelle leong
sharon and bryan
ash and buddi
just wanna say great job you guys ! keep it up:)
went to check out the rap competition at youth park today. it was hosted by some girl rochelle.. erm .. or something liddat .. me and sharon had alot to say about the host but erm, those words aren't meant to be repeated twice. x_x" .. realise she was wearing those LCD belts and i walked up to her wondering what were the words running on hers.
i got my answer.
to my horror the words "MAMA" flashed across her waist .. o man . just wait till i tell sharon!
but it was pretty interesting. rather good turn out and the rapping was not bad. and yes! i saw elim chew agian! i agree with teddy that she is awesome. her name card is super impressive that makes me go weak in the knees reading. now that ladies and gentlemen is what i would call i powerful portrait of a super woman. and i am full of admiration and super inspired. makes me wonder who she dates.. hmm... i think anyone would feel at least a little intimidated .. sighz
as for radio pulze booth area which is located at cinelesuire everyone was having fun. me and buddi were trying to be farnie with the music playlist.ha . o and i saw a few performances through out the day. was especially impressed by the girl breakers. insanity..erm.. something. whoops. it slipped my brain. way to go girllllzzzz~~! i think if i ever dared try to break, i'll simply break my bones trying ! haaaa... old ya know
ok really very tired...
didn't eat till late and i feel a headache coming on. sigh. too much sun? shall rest.
but plzzzz peepz
if you are in the vincinity: pls go check out singapore street festival with all its activities and interesting happenin programmes coming right at ya from 2th-18th june. radio pulze will be stationed at cinelesuire for now and will be also at plaza singapura from the 14th onwards.
[headmusic]: the scientist by coldplay
(sorry for the mistakes .. whoops spelt wrongly)
Thursday, June 01, 2006 . 11:37 PM
sometimes the past tends to catch up with you faster then you can run. sometimes this really is true no matter how you hide. i sympathise with your pain, the confusion and the terrible hurt.i feel sad for you. so sue me that i am not atypical.yester went to zouk
didnt see shaun and co. heard that he was bringing roland to zouk.thought i could say hi ah well .. hope roland had a nice time. saw a semi blur looking greg only when leo told me. i didn't even see him at all till then. how funny. oh and i ran into wallace who was with some drunk friend! how strange to have met him there after so long after the cj days.
currently typing an essay using my feminism text and theory stuff.
this is the question :
"The media are instrumental in the processes of gaining public consent. Media texts never simply mirror or reflect “reality”, but instead construct hegemonic definitions of what should be accepted as “reality”.
(Critical readings: Media and Gender,C. Carter & L. Steiner (eds), Open University Press 2004, p.2).
Consider concepts like “choice” and “agency” in relation to media images and representations. Critically evaluate the above statement about the hegemonic power of media and the effects media stereotypes of femininity and/or masculinity have on young women and men.
>> super eeww
tomorrow SSF meeting and SSF begins. erm yups. sighz two weeks of SSF going on.okie peeps whoever is bumming in town do pop by the various sites
-cineles
-ps
-youth park
-the mall
i wish i had time for coffee..sighz
one mocha frappachino thanx:)
[quote]: finally something to freak out about. this is so not good
