Sunday, November 05, 2006 . 10:45 AM
::push the door i'm home at lastand i'm soaking through and through
then you handed me a towel
and all i see is you
even if my house falls down now i wouldn't have a clue
because you're near me::
its my last 2 days in melbourne and i did some reflection on all that has past
they say in life you take one step forward then ten steps back.maturity is to me like taking the ten steps backwards stop. realise the huge mistake you made, and start screaming and running the next 300000000000000 miles forwards for the rest of your life.
and perphaps i'd miss you forever and that's it.
i admit openly about this.
perphaps i just want everyone to know that the damage done to both me and her is irreversible. that this is finally my closure.for myself. i want everyone reading this to wish me well for it. for accepting her choices, lousy as i think they are, and leave it as that.i can. i will. i have done. for me growing up. getting older, more independent, broken and so much wiser.i am ..happy.finally.
im going home tomorrow.
everyone asks if i will come back. sue, eddie, mori, bruce my boss, legends customers, people back in sg, and i just shrugged. bruce wants me back to work for him etc. nice to know i can support myself rather well even if i do roll over.
i've not felt so liberated in a long time working independantly, making friends, travelling around efficient on my own, and going home just clinches everything into its offical place. grown up. grown old. i guess everything will be alright and will be ok. i still love melbourne. nothing has changed.
back home, the group has been worried. this is my letter/shoutout to you guys i am good.at some points extremely happy.i want you to know how good but i'm saving all that for later when i have you guys with me!
and yes, im heading home to wreck harvoc with Everyone beside me.with my Age chasing behind me, and the Party all around me. im such a brat. is there such thing as a mature brat? ah well ....... its been a while.
and now..all i have to worry about is my damned luggage
life really is that simple once more.
[headmusic]:coming home by Kenny G
[quotes]:the fact that i am want for nothingi am that strong
and then "bang!"
you came along.
ps: my aussie hp has no credits. anyone wanting to reach me pls ring me and pray i pick up!
