Saturday, September 09, 2006 . 8:12 AM
i woke up it was 9.50am melb. sg 7.50amheard noises in the living room and went to pee.
let me just say:
i think you should stop saying how much you have try soughting after me. i realise i can't compete , nor was i ever in your mind at all compared to a lousy 9am phcall.
even i never had a sg 7 am phcall from you.
im sad.
if i could throw in a little hate would be good
i can't even be spiteful. hurray for the scorpio who kept her tongue. many people would have been proud of me.but i tell you guys what... i rather be dead
to everyone else:
im tired of those piteous looks
asking me is it hard is the worst thing.really.
YOU try.
i'd like to bite my tongue
the thing is trying not to die.this world is so full of shit.
anyway back to some shallow reality yester i worked!
yup got a job at the infamous Legends this pool place at chapel st.working doing the usual waitressing outside the pool counter.they kinda need people for the weekends only so _shrugs- im IT. o and i got tips!$10.80 worth from the customers . so tightwades wouldn't even part with a mere 10cents! i tell you so kiam man. eddie shouted "YOU CHEAPSKATE!" so loudly.
wasn't a bad first day.eddie and mori and even sue were nice thought i did fuck up a little in the beginning with the table orders.
then the happy odd group: flo, her cousin, pei, me and sue headed down to The Beach Club this new place tessa is working in. and yup miss t.shaw was working so i wandered around and saw ollie. poor girl fought with robert as usual. he really is quite a nut and sometimes though i hate to see him get scolded by miss ollie, its better then getting cheated by some cheap whore girl.
realised to my horror it was greg's birthday cele.my face stoned.
he was pissed by the time we all got there ard 1.30am.he was like "you are ... you are.......?"
"MICHELLE!! yesshh! michelllleeeee.....!!!" then he looked at pei when she asked him whats her name and "ermm..erm... you are ...??" what a sob.met his friend can't rem the name of the guy. kinda "getto-ish" he told me he is singaporean too and he stays in yishun. i told him i stayed ang moh kio ave 1 and we hi-fived. think we're being bit silly.
the Beach Club plays horrible R&B and not bad house
their idea of r&b was like semi techno mixed getto and shit. pretty bad
in the house room we were surrounded by beefy men and strange people dancing. wanted to laugh but i held it in. fun... wasn't bad for the happy odd group.
they we all left, cramped into flo's car and headed to Chapellis
shared a scallop pasta which was amazing for a main course. everyone in the table was watching me eat bread (bread, butter and sprinkle lots of parmesan) and yeah after that i open the cheese bottle and ate the cheese powder with my knife. didn't care what people thought really.
touched home at ard 5am.
back aching.maybe it is the shoes. i bloody forgot my boots. kill me.
can some kind soul who loves me send it over before i freeze my toes off? haa ..
and yes
i look at melb sky line its all the same.
the parties , the people, the shopping, the goddamn buildings -
nothing has changed.
just what i feel now.
what im suppose to feel now.
i was having this weird idea in my head: maybe seeing how static i am vs her changing, in time with enough pain i'll learn change too. like i've said winter has to be alot colder. maybe i'll turn ice.
shoutout:
bear: hey .. how have you been? its raining. its freezing. today is suppose to have slighly hail.i should learn and be happy. just like you are when it pours. then maybe i would be
leo: girl, don't worry. and yes.. gifts gifts gifts!
lit: *pats .. yah pal i so darn miss you! better get your ass here we'll go shopping
ollie: thanks for the offer. i'll kiv
miss a: im really sorry about the job thingy.i wish you had what you wanted
duckie: i so so so soooooo need you right now
ALL: HEY THIS IS MY AUSSIE PREPAID NUMBER PLS TAKE IT DOWN. AND YES THIS PREPAID IS MINE JUST GOT THE NUMBER YESTERDAY AT OPTUS
MICHELLE'S AUSSIE HP: +61417740953
OK shall watch some dvds.tonight there is work agian
i hope i can get more jobs. i need work therepy. everyone who knows me well enough, they know why.
people back in sg- i really miss you. if you have my number plz contact me whenever. i'd love to hear from you. ANYTIME
[headmusic]: i don't wanna know by mario, bimbo revolution
[thoughts]: i wish you were here
